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Saturday, 03 January 2009
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Will Power
self-con·trol [self-kuhn-trohl]
–noun
control or restraint of oneself or one's actions, feelings, etc.
—Synonyms self-discipline, self-restraint, willpower, levelheadedness.
Congratulate me! I was able to resist talking to him online for a whole day and a half! Yehey! =)) Dude... ang hirap!! He did say good night to me though... :D :D
Nako, pagbigyan niyo nakooo, It'll take some time before I can fully recover. I will admit that I still like him verrrry much :D haha
goooodnight ya'll!
Friday, 31 October 2008
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True Love
I'm in LOVE!!
I have a newfound LOVER.
Haha boypren? Boylet? Crush? Di ah.
Ano tingin niyo sakin?! Wahaha.
It's God I'm talking about. I met him recently lang and he really CHANGED my life. :)
I started reading the Bible this year. I met people who taught me how to have a relationship with God. Wow. that was a big milestone and I just wanna share how much I appreciate Him and how much He loves me.. How He loves US. :)
It feels so good to know that there is Someone that you can count on.
Family + Friend + Lover + Psychiatrist + Doctor + Financier + Guide + Security Guard + Yaya
in One!
Ang galing galing talaga ni God!
God is my Lightning.
He is the jolt of light that lights and GUIDESmy way through the DARKNESS of LIFE.He is the electricity that runs my
battery pack of STRENGTH.
He is the powerful force from heaven that comes
every time there is a STORM in my life. :)
(But of course God is ALWAYS there. Di tulad ng lightning na nandiyan lang pag umuulan.. but you get my point. hehe)
Wala ako masabi kundi....
iLOL
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LOVE only LORD!
(hehe)
"But seek first the kingdom of God and
His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.."
-Matthew 6:33
Sunday, 12 October 2008
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Just passing by..
Hello once again Xanga! I missed blogging so much! It's just that the computer at home has been busted for the whole semester and I don't think it'll ever get fixed anymore. My roomate's laptop is also broken and up to now is still zippo.
I FEEL SO INCOMPLETE WITHOUT MY OWN PERSONAL PC TO WASTE TIME WITH.
Haha. It's just that, I can usually spend hours on the pc just chatting, editing a new picture or making a blog entry, or just wasting my time playing games or viewing videos. It's my PASSPORT TO THE WORLD.
But the thing I miss the most talaga is BLOGGING. There were so many times when I had an Idea for a good blog but couldn't put it down here. Sayaaaang. I have THIS palmtop though, but I can only post text here, I really don't enjoy posting without posting pictures, it makes my entries so plain. blech.
Okay. So anyway. The First semester of junior year is almost over, with just the grandcase presentation to dread. It's been a wonderful new experience, having hospital duty for the first time and all. I kind of regret having my "ANMN Syndrome" (Ayoko Na Mag Nursing Syndrome) at more than half of the areas that we've been to, I could have gotten better grades, and enjoyed it too.
There were times when I really hated my duty. Hate hate hate. I don't like being told what to do, or being rushed or being helpless just watching the poor people get less of the health care they should get. It is really sad to see that there really is discrimination and that most public hospitals really lack funds to compensate for the number of people who need their service.
Woo, masyadong malalalim. Haha anyway, I enjoyed this semester. It's WAY easier than 2nd year, that's for sure.
That ends the academics, now for my extra curriculars.
Well, I've been really active (ako pa hehe). I've joined some new organizations this semester: Victory Christian Fellowship (I help with the art stuff and powerpoint :D), VOICE Campaign (as campaign manager for the SNA elections), SNA Arts committee, Amaranth Creative team (which almost does'nt exist), Trinity Observer (School newspaper- staffwriter and graphics artist), and of course, my pride and joy, TUA Chorale (P.R.O. ako ngayon :D)
What can I say, I love helping out! But you know what, I think I really have to work on my humility. Yumayabang na ba ako? Mayabang ba talaga ako? I need to hear your opinion, coz I really can't tell by myself. I need to hear it from others.
"THE HIGHER WE ARE PLACED, THE MORE HUMBLY WE SHOULD WALK." -CICERO
This is a quote I got from one of the hospitals I went to. I need to watch out. I don't want to be MAYABANG.
Next up, SOCIAL LIFE. Meron ba ko nun? Haha. I've been very insecure lately. I felt that I didn't fit it... in my class, in VCF... grabe. I felt that I didn't have any friends and that I was so out of place. Luckily I am now okay and realized that it's all in the mind. Although I really don't like some of my classmates. I guess I just have to live with it.
I miss my college barkada, "FEECEEDEE" so much, and my highschool friends talaga. Eversince I got cut off from the internet, I stopped talking to them. Parang wala na akong alam sa mundo. Been contacting them lately. We need to meet up in person and spend some time together though... KAILANGAN!
Okay... LOVELIFE naman tayo. Homai... GUESS WHO'S BACK, BACK AGAIN? Wala lang, nagpaparamdam nanaman si *bangaw*. He's been flooding my phone with "patama quotes" and nagyaya na lumabas kami. I've been ignoring him. Gulo ng mundo nun. Di niya malaman kung babae o lalaki siya. Haha :) Ang bad ko wehehe. Di ko siya pinapansin ngayon. Sobra hehe.
There is however, si *thunder* who, has been so nice to me and treating me really sweetly. I don't know if it's just me, but I feel that he also does like me and it's killing me.
"THE PROPER THING TO DO, IS FOR ME TO ACT LIKE A LADY AND WAIT FOR YOU TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE. BUT I DON'T THINK YOU'RE GETTING THE POINT, THAT IT'S YOU THAT I WANT." -STUPID FOR YOU, MARIE DIGBY
Yan ang bagay na kanta sakin ngayon. Haha. Iv'e been asking advice from people and it seems like I'm torn between two decisions: To nurture what I feel, or to let go of it. If he is for me, then go! Pero kung hindi... di wag. I guess that's it. I've been praying about it a lot. I've been trying to avoid falling more and more for me him but it seems that I can't get him out of the "more than just a friend" category.
San ka ba makakahanap ng lalaking makadiyos, mabait, corny, nakakatuwa, magaling kumanta, sweet, concerned, caring, gentleman at higit sa lahat... GWAPO! Mahirap diba?
"A BOY LIKE YOU IS IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND, IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND." -FALL FOR YOU, SECONDHAND SERENADE
*thunder* is unlike any other talaga. That's why he'll ALWAYS BE MY *THUNDER* (I got that codename from the song Thunder by Boys Like Girls).
I really don't know what to do right now. Basta I know that I'm inspired by him. But GOD is still my BIGGEST inspiration :)
That's probably it... I am loving my life, medyo financially unstable, but that's not a hindrance for me to have life to the fullest :). Maybe I'll do better at my future hospital duties and join more extra curriculars :) lovelife ayoko muna isipin. Hehe.
That's probably it! Till next time! I will update more often once I get to parasite another PC. And will make better blog entries when I get a PC to edit with :)
BABOOSH!
Saturday, 26 April 2008
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Sparta (Spartē) n.
The ancient land of Sparta, now more commonly known as "St. Luke's College of Nursing", lies at the heart of Quezon City, in a strategic position guarded by "Mount Taygetus", now known as "St. Luke's Hospital".
Sparta was, above all, a militarist state, and emphasis on military fitness began virtually at "birth" (Now more commonly known as "enrollment"). Shortly after "birth", the child was tested for strength and intelligence.
If the child survived it was brought before the "elders" ("professors") of the tribe. The "elders" then decided whether it was to be reared or not. If found defective or weak, the baby was left on the wild slopes of Mount Taygetos also known as "Apothetae", or as the "Place of Rejection" - to die.
In this way the Spartans attempted the maintenance of high physical and mental standards in their population. From the earliest days of the Spartan citizen, the claim on his life by the state was absolute and strictly enforced.
It was customary in Sparta that before the Spartans would go off to war, their parents would present them with their shield and say: "With this, or upon this" —meaning Spartans could only return to Sparta in one of two ways: victorious or dead.
Okay. Enough of the introduction. Here's the real deal. :)
Everyone in my section FAILED for our midterm this summer. Mind you, some of them are the TOP NOTCHERS of our batch, not just mere humans. These are the people who survived... the SPARTANS OF BATCH AMARANTH, the ones who brutally battled their way into passing with flying colors, the ones who did not sleep to study for Anatomy and Microbiology, the ones who 80-percented the Nursing aptitude test, the ones that stayed in the Dean's list, the ones with scholarships in their name, the FOUR HUNDRED AND TWENTY FOUR that was left from a thousand and three hundred...
I'm not saying all of them are geniuses, I mean, I BARELY passed. If it weren't for my minor subjects, I would have failed. And and and, if you wanna know, I got a 1.94 GPA... *whew* take note, 2.00 was the passing grade, thank you Lord! So don't say I'm being mayabang. I just really admire those who really made an effort AND succeeded too :) (wala kasi akong ka effort effort haha)
So there... I'm barely hanging for my life right now. IT IS DIFFICULT. VERY DIFFICULT. I actually think that I'm one of the dumbest in my class. I know, you think I'm exaggerating but I'm trying to turn it into a positive thing :) I'm actually really REALLY trying to keep up and get higher grades this time :)
Most of my classmates are really smart okay. They get 1.25 in Anatomy and 1's in the minor subjects (for those confused, 1 is the highest grade in most colleges, 5 is the lowest). Why does St. Luke's College of Nursing have to do this to us?
Okay, I understand that they're letting us taste failure to push us to do better but I don't think It was neccesary to let our grades suffer for it. What the heck are they thinking?
I'm really.. REALLY having a hard time just to pass right now. Dude, I never read my books during the 1st year and I passed (barely). But now that I actually read ALL the pages in my book, take notes and actually review really hard... Now that I actually do STUDY, is the time when I actually FAIL.
Do you know that feeling when you study REAAALLLY hard for a test, you do everything humanely possible to stay awake while staying away from temptations like TV and the PC? You spend hours making review notes and memorizing gazillions of terms for 3 Major subjects.You brush off your highschool reunion because you have "to study". You get caffeine overdose from all the coffee you drank to stay awake. In short.. You give it all you got, all efforts squeezed in to studying...
....and what do you get?
YOU FAIL.
HOMAAIIGGGAAD. Is it this hard to become a nurse? Is it like this in all nursing schools? Do we deserve this injustice?!
I just don't think it's all worth the hardship. We've had a very traumatizing year last year. We lost a lot of people we considered our friends. We got seperated from our barkadas. We experienced the fear of not knowing wether we were "safe" or not. We burned our pockets spending every cent on school projects and homeworks. We lost our minds trying to get that 75% passing grade.
So to those of you Spartans who moved to other "tribes", don't feel too bad, you're really not missing much. I hope you've learned a lot from "Sparta", use the discipline that they taught us to excel in the tribes that you chose :)
To those Spartans who, like me, are struggling too, BE STRONG. If only we could hold war against our "tribe", I would definitely join (haha!). But right now all we can do is PERSEVERE.
And by the way, according to some friends from the higher batches, this is NORMAL. Sure, we will have more of these trying times, sure we will have these frustrated moments, but we WILL PASS!
I'm not discouraging you, but it's better to be prepared. We can do this! We shall B*TCH SLAP those who made us suffer! We shall pass!
BATCH AMARANTH!
WE ARE SPARTANS!!!
AHOO!!! AHOO!!
Marge for WORLD PEACE Y'ALL!!
Haha :) Peace out! By the way.. 62.36% is soooo not a grade. Leche yan.
Sunday, 20 April 2008
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Crushorrhea
Crushorrhea (krə-shə-rē'ə) n.Is an excessive and frequent illness of people with no love life. It is characterized by abundance of crushes, stalking habits, non-stop blabbering about crushes, stolen camera pictures and friendster views.The "Crush" (also known as the "prospect") is the main cause of this illness usually identified as handsome/pretty, great smile, nice eyes, sexy, smells nice, gentleman, funny, sweet, nice, intelligent and the likes.Chronic crushorrhea symptoms are: keeping of pictures of prospect inside cabinets/walls/on top of study tables, cellphone/computer desktop picture of crushes, looking for prospect and hiding whenever the said prospect is around, writing prospect's last name with own name, writing prospects name in any paper that one gets his hands on, dreams being with prospect.Chronic crushorrhea, if not immediately given attention may lead to a delusionary state otherwise known as Feelingtitis (fē'lĭng-tī'tĭs) which is an inflammation of the feelings of the patient. It is characterized by imagining prospect as one's actual girlfriend/boyfriend, referring to prospect as one's "baby"/"honey" and the likes, claiming to have 3 children with the said prospect, claiming to have dated the other night, claiming prospect had said "i love you", and gastroenteritis.Treatment for crushorrhea involves Therapy with a specialized psychiatrist also known as "best friend". Take note that therapy with the best friend is temporary.
Drug of choice for chronic curshorrhea would be boyfriendamine (brand names: perfect-BF, mahalkosiyaphenol, babykozamine) and should be taken 3 times a day with 3 tablespoons of sugar dissolved in one palanggana of water. Although boyfriendamine is very effective, scarcity of the drug poses as a problem.Alternative drug would be chocolate (Hershey's Kisses, Crunch, Choco mucho, etc) which contains phenylalanine which acts as a sedative. It is known to give a delusionary state similar to taking boyfriendamine. There are also food containing high amounts of chocolate including oreo, champorado, fondue, etc.Ikaw, may crushorrhea ka ba?Made this all by myself :)
