Hello once again Xanga! I missed blogging so much! It's just that the computer at home has been busted for the whole semester and I don't think it'll ever get fixed anymore. My roomate's laptop is also broken and up to now is still zippo.
I FEEL SO INCOMPLETE WITHOUT MY OWN PERSONAL PC TO WASTE TIME WITH.
Haha. It's just that, I can usually spend hours on the pc just chatting, editing a new picture or making a blog entry, or just wasting my time playing games or viewing videos. It's my PASSPORT TO THE WORLD.
But the thing I miss the most talaga is BLOGGING. There were so many times when I had an Idea for a good blog but couldn't put it down here. Sayaaaang. I have THIS palmtop though, but I can only post text here, I really don't enjoy posting without posting pictures, it makes my entries so plain. blech.
Okay. So anyway. The First semester of junior year is almost over, with just the grandcase presentation to dread. It's been a wonderful new experience, having hospital duty for the first time and all. I kind of regret having my "ANMN Syndrome" (Ayoko Na Mag Nursing Syndrome) at more than half of the areas that we've been to, I could have gotten better grades, and enjoyed it too.
There were times when I really hated my duty. Hate hate hate. I don't like being told what to do, or being rushed or being helpless just watching the poor people get less of the health care they should get. It is really sad to see that there really is discrimination and that most public hospitals really lack funds to compensate for the number of people who need their service.
Woo, masyadong malalalim. Haha anyway, I enjoyed this semester. It's WAY easier than 2nd year, that's for sure.
That ends the academics, now for my extra curriculars.
Well, I've been really active (ako pa hehe). I've joined some new organizations this semester: Victory Christian Fellowship (I help with the art stuff and powerpoint :D), VOICE Campaign (as campaign manager for the SNA elections), SNA Arts committee, Amaranth Creative team (which almost does'nt exist), Trinity Observer (School newspaper- staffwriter and graphics artist), and of course, my pride and joy, TUA Chorale (P.R.O. ako ngayon :D)
What can I say, I love helping out! But you know what, I think I really have to work on my humility. Yumayabang na ba ako? Mayabang ba talaga ako? I need to hear your opinion, coz I really can't tell by myself. I need to hear it from others.
"THE HIGHER WE ARE PLACED, THE MORE HUMBLY WE SHOULD WALK." -CICERO
This is a quote I got from one of the hospitals I went to. I need to watch out. I don't want to be MAYABANG.
Next up, SOCIAL LIFE. Meron ba ko nun? Haha. I've been very insecure lately. I felt that I didn't fit it... in my class, in VCF... grabe. I felt that I didn't have any friends and that I was so out of place. Luckily I am now okay and realized that it's all in the mind. Although I really don't like some of my classmates. I guess I just have to live with it.
I miss my college barkada, "FEECEEDEE" so much, and my highschool friends talaga. Eversince I got cut off from the internet, I stopped talking to them. Parang wala na akong alam sa mundo. Been contacting them lately. We need to meet up in person and spend some time together though... KAILANGAN!
Okay... LOVELIFE naman tayo. Homai... GUESS WHO'S BACK, BACK AGAIN? Wala lang, nagpaparamdam nanaman si *bangaw*. He's been flooding my phone with "patama quotes" and nagyaya na lumabas kami. I've been ignoring him. Gulo ng mundo nun. Di niya malaman kung babae o lalaki siya. Haha :) Ang bad ko wehehe. Di ko siya pinapansin ngayon. Sobra hehe.
There is however, si *thunder* who, has been so nice to me and treating me really sweetly. I don't know if it's just me, but I feel that he also does like me and it's killing me.
"THE PROPER THING TO DO, IS FOR ME TO ACT LIKE A LADY AND WAIT FOR YOU TO MAKE THE FIRST MOVE. BUT I DON'T THINK YOU'RE GETTING THE POINT, THAT IT'S
YOU THAT I WANT." -STUPID FOR YOU, MARIE DIGBY
Yan ang bagay na kanta sakin ngayon. Haha. Iv'e been asking advice from people and it seems like I'm torn between two decisions: To nurture what I feel, or to let go of it. If he is for me, then go! Pero kung hindi... di wag. I guess that's it. I've been praying about it a lot. I've been trying to avoid falling more and more for me him but it seems that I can't get him out of the
"more than just a friend" category.
San ka ba makakahanap ng lalaking makadiyos, mabait, corny, nakakatuwa, magaling kumanta, sweet, concerned, caring, gentleman at higit sa lahat... GWAPO! Mahirap diba?
"A BOY LIKE YOU IS IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND, IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND." -FALL FOR YOU, SECONDHAND SERENADE
*thunder* is unlike any other talaga. That's why he'll ALWAYS BE MY *THUNDER* (I got that codename from the song Thunder by Boys Like Girls).
I really don't know what to do right now. Basta I know that I'm inspired by him. But GOD is still my BIGGEST inspiration :)
That's probably it... I am loving my life, medyo financially unstable, but that's not a hindrance for me to have life to the fullest :). Maybe I'll do better at my future hospital duties and join more extra curriculars :) lovelife ayoko muna isipin. Hehe.
That's probably it! Till next time! I will update more often once I get to parasite another PC. And will make better blog entries when I get a PC to edit with :)
BABOOSH!
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